addiction

i've come to realize that my life has a constant in it.  a constant stream of obsessions and addictions.  now, you're worried.  i've gone and instilled a small sense of panic in you.  wasn't that nice of me?  well, take a deep breath and let it out slowly while i take a moment to assure you that everything is ok.  i am ok (although your and my sense of the word 'ok' may differ.... let's just agree to disagree, shall we? ;). 

the obsessions come in waves and create deep-seated addictions to which i am all but powerless.  case in point:  the office.  after skeptically listening to the show being praised for four straight seasons, i timidly decided to watch the show from the beginning and give it a fair chance.  now, i've watched every episode to date, nary make plans for a thursday night lest i miss the initial airing of the show's latest delectable 30 mins, and i own every season of the show.  i dissect the characters, plot lines, patterns, etc... until i feel completely satiated and can fast until the next week's airing. 

left with doubts about my obsessions?  "you're just a fan of the show" you say?  well, that brings us to case in point numero dos:  twilight.  (leave your opinions at the door and just keep reading)   
now, i was almost determined not to like this.  i was convinced that the excessive hype around the movie and the subsequent book series was just a bunch of media stirring corrupting the all-to-impressionable minds who were listening.  i truly believed it all to be a bunch of teeny bopper entertainment.  and i actually like vampire movies!  the media also started making a big deal out of rob pattinson.  i didn't get it.  sure he has some chiseled cheekbones and potentially mesmerizing eyes, but many a male actor could be described in the same way.  so, i avoided it in the movie theaters and chalked the whole thing up as a potential chick flick rental down the line to form my own opinion on.  well, i rented it and it was love at first sight.  i instantly watched it a second time (i mean the dvd didn't even get turned off in between viewings!).  i realize i sound like a lunatic, but this latest addiction is serious.  i bought the entire book series and am reading over a hundred pages a night.  i can't get enough.  i downloaded the soundtrack and have played it almost constantly.  now, this whole obsession started last sunday and admittedly i see no coming up for air from this one for a while.  at the same time, i can't help but wince when i think that i might be one of the fans that goes to the midnight showing of the second movie in the saga when it opens. 

i really didn't know this about myself.  this latest twilight thing has opened my eyes to my own pattern.  i do this with everything i like.  writing this, i was thinking about music, books, subject areas, etc...  reflecting on this though, i realize this pattern could easily be found in my love life as well.  oh geeze....